My 2018 Manifesto (Part 1): Defeating The Resistance
My first year of creating, I have had some highs and some lows. When it comes to creating content – at the end of the day – it’s doing what you want to do. Producing the thing that you are passionate about sharing it with the world. The flipside of that coin is the monster that always rears its ugly head – The Resistance.
The Resistance is the monster that lives in every one of us regardless of what we do. Thoughts that creep into your mind and tell you-you are not good enough.
Eat that unhealthy food! Don’t go to the gym! Why are you creating content? No one cares about what you are saying!
During this first year of creating, I have been face to face with The Resistance many times. The little whispers I get in my ear to go home after work and do nothing. I would come home and give into it. Relaxing on the couch, doing nothing, while knowing that tomorrow I am going to feel like shit about it.
Beating The Resistance:
With 2018 here, I want to be able to put The Resistance in a cobra clutch and submit that bitch. I want to stand face to face with it and tell it to go fuck itself. The path that I am on requires this to happen.
As I said before, The Resistance does not come around only for content creation. It has been around when I am trying to improve myself – when I am trying to be a better person. The Resistance is the one that will show up on different levels of life. It will tell me to binge eat or drink too much.
Why do I let The Resistance win when I have all the knowledge to destroy it?
With all the new insights I have gained in the past year, why can I put this behind me for good?
These are the things and thoughts I face every single day. The Resistance will never go away. It will always remain.
This is why you read that life is a constant struggle. You have a fight to get into every single day. The fight within your own mind. I need to be able to win this chess game with my internal struggle one day at a time – every day.
I won’t lie. On some days, somewhere deep inside of me, I don’t want to succeed. I don’t know what is on the other side. The extra work that goes into true success. Whether that be with content creation or my own weight loss.
When I get to the end of the game, where do I go from there? I need to realize is there is no end game. If I achieve my goal is one thing then there will be a hundred new goals for me waiting. Why am I wasting so much time on one goal when life is so short?
Get it the fuck done and move on.
The Narrative In My Mind:
This year I am going to change the narrative in my mind to beat The Resistance. I know that I have a talent for this. Every little tiny success I made a reality. I deserve the wins.
I also deserve any losses that come. My self-limiting beliefs will always be there. They are one part of the monster that is The Resistance. I will lessen these self-limiting beliefs in the new year.
I need to believe without a shadow of a doubt that I can succeed with content creation. The weight that I have packed on over the years can be gone. I can fucking do this!
The funny part of all this is that I know I can produce awesome content. Yet, I still have to have these conversations with myself.
I have firsthand seen the happiness my content created.
In only one year, look what I have done:
Wrote around 75 articles in one year including 3 short stories
That hosts my own personal vlogs as well as videos to go along with these blog articles
All these things are amazing as I sit here and write them out. I know I have the potential to make 2018 even better.
I have seen all the accomplishments I have made in only one years time. The potential is there to do something that is special. I have to rewire my brain to believe in myself more than I ever have.
Breaking Out Of My Comfort Zone:
The first 31 years of my life, I stayed in my comfort zone. The decision I made to start this journey is brand new. I still struggle when I break out of that zone. It still feels strange to me.
When inside of my comfort zone, I didn’t have any pressure on myself to become something to better. To create content or put myself out into the world.
My heart and soul didn’t match up to what my brain was telling me. That part of my brain I am referring to is, once again, The Resistance.
Writing and creating video has forced me to break free of that comfort zone. The reason being is that I need to practice what I preach. My audience needs me to be the most real and authentic version of myself. I can not do that when I let The Resistance win.
I have lived in that dark realm for so long that the demons of that past life still remain. The difference is that this time I will be ready for them when they decide to try and destroy my dreams.
The thought to give up all this content creation and go back to an easy life again is always around. But, as I said at the beginning of this article, I will NEVER let The Resistance win.
I may take a day or a week or a month off at times, but I will never quit.
I will not go back to how I was no matter how many times I face The Resistance. My mission is to take pride in all that I do – always moving forward. With this mindset, I know I can achieve something great for myself and everyone who listens.
This is my Manifesto for 2018.
I wanted to share some of my aspirations and goals moving into the New Year with you. The self-sabotaging thoughts I carry with me need to lessen as much as possible.
As always, I will be journaling my progress with this throughout the entire year. Stay tuned to SeftimorLive.com for more!
I hope when 2018 comes to a close, we can say we beat The Resistance together.